Last week, I stumbled upon "Curse Forced Gay". I still don't remember how it happened. Nor do I know what made me decide to listen to it. Clearly, I didn't make much of it. I never really believed in hypnosis, nor did I think that listening to it once would actually do something - especially not to someone with no experience in hypnosis. So I kind of shrugged off the warning. What could actually happen - and how could it possibly be permanent?

I lay down and started listening to the voice... and before I even realized I drifted off. Only to wake up just before the end of the recording. Had I fallen asleep - or did I actually go under? For the rest of the day, I didn't think too much about it. But the next day, the recording was on my mind again. I kind of felt drawn to it, and eventually I gave in - hoping that this time I wouldn't fall asleep again and actually be able to listen to the words of the recording. But I failed miserably and zoned out again...

That's when I started to worry a bit for the first time. I've been happily married for 15 years, and even though I've been bi curious, I've never actually felt particularly attracted to other men. And I didn't think that a recording like this could change anything about it. But since then, I listened to the file two more times. I don't know what kept drawing me to it. The last couple of days I also felt drawn to gay porn more than usual and masturbated a lot to hairy chubby men fucking. Can it really be that the file is working so fast and I'm so susceptible to it? I'm getting quite concerned what I might have gotten myself into.

This morning I woke up from a dream about men fucking - and was rock hard. And I already feel the pull to listen to the file again. Fuck, what have I done?